Friday, July 19, 2013

Two For One

For The First Time is getting a major overhaul in the coming months. The overall story was fine and two-thirds of it will remain the same, but the last third wasn't doing it for me. Resolution was too easy. It happened too fast. Ally has serious fight in her and it wasn't being displayed.

Kurt Vonnegut said to be a sadist. To throw your characters into the fire. Ally's fire was more of a smolder so she was thrown into flames.

Now you'll see what she's made of. Now she'll become someone to be proud of.

This idea of testing your characters, of pushing them to their limits and then pushing them some more is something I ran with for the rest of the books in the series. All of my heroines will have the chance to show their strength.

I have to say, it's been fun working on Just to Keep You Warm, Sarah's story, and seeing Ally and Matt through her eyes. We get more from Matt in Sarah's book - a lot more. And I adore Matt the big brother.

Just to Keep You Warm is about half written and I am completely shocked by the results. We don't see a lot of her in Ally's book but Sarah is truly blowing me away.

And since I'm riding a high from a particularly sweet scene between Matt and Sarah in JTKYW, I'm posting a little tiny teaser from For the First Time. :)






Sunday, June 2, 2013

The Current State of the World

Let's start with this: the title of this post is misleading. I don't plan on commenting on the entirety of the world. Mostly I'm interested in the current author blog topics.

As many who avidly follow indie authors' blogs have likely seen, there has been a lot of commentary on new authors and the seemingly thrown-together nature of many recently successful e-books. Established authors, authors that I cyberstalk, authors whose books I drool over have been essentially condemning those who write a story, don't have it professionally edited and then sell it on Amazon just because they can. It's become simple to sell e-books online. Well, at least simpler than traditional publishing.

Overall, I agree. It takes work and dedication to write a story and authors owe it to readers who spend their hard-earned money on books to give them the best story they can, and that includes having the story professionally edited. As a reader, I've wanted to throw my Kindle countless times after reading a book that is a clusterfuck of grammar mistakes or a book that is essentially a ripoff of something else. In fact, in the last week, I've put down two books that had scenes entirely too similar to two books I love. Too similar to be coincidental. Just today, I went on a huge rant to my family about a book that took a line almost verbatim from a book that's blown up in the past year.

Why are these books so highly ranked on Amazon? How do the good ones get overshadowed by stories we've read seven thousand times?

As a reader, I get it.

But one thing has been woefully ignored in this whole conversation.

How do I interpret this as an aspiring author?

Are other authors, authors who I've grown to admire and respect, going to condemn me for writing a book that might not be as good as theirs and trying to compete with them? Am I going to be included in the unspecified subject of one of these blog posts someday? Is this something I will be paranoid about until an author I look up to reads one of my books and gives me their blessing?

I understand that authors work hard on their books. It takes time and sacrifice to get a final product you're proud of and it takes money to make that product suitable for readers. But if someone doesn't think my book is as good as theirs, does that mean I worked less hard on it? I'd say fuck no. 

These authors have a point, and it's a valid one. But what's the solution? How do authors figure out if their book is worthy to sell through a channel as accessible as Amazon? How do we articulate the hierarchy of indie books? Relying on readers to find the best books amongst an infinite supply doesn't seem to be working. But how do you tell someone who has a story to tell that they shouldn't sell their book?

I feel like I should say that this is just my opinion. This is how I've interpreted this whole onslaught of blogs. This may not hold true for everyone. Maybe there are people who are just looking to make a quick buck and think writing a book and selling it is an easy way to do it. 

As someone who dreams of breaking into this industry, though, it's been discouraging to see the multitude of comments about some authors not living up to standards set by established ones. I feel like I'm trying to join a community that doesn't want me there. Shouldn't we be encouraging people to tell their stories? To make sure their voices are heard? 

Maybe I'm just naive.

All I can say is that four beautiful souls have been talking in my head. Clamoring to get out. Begging to be heard.

We're coming, like it or not.

Sunday, May 5, 2013

Separation Anxiety

The first draft is nearing completion. It's so close. SO CLOSE. As such, I've been researching my next steps: revisions, beta readers, editing, cover art. A lot of writers suggest putting your manuscript aside for a while and then revisiting it with a fresh perspective before a rewrite.

This seems like good advice, right? But then I saw the length of time suggested.

Three. Months.

How does one stay away from their baby for three months? I know my manuscript doesn't breathe, but seriously, I haven't been away from it for more than a week since I wrote the first scene.

On one hand, it makes sense. You come back and read your story with fresh eyes and catch inconsistencies and problems with flow and all that.

But on the other hand, I'm pretty sure my manuscript has seen more of me over the past eleven months than my family and friends have. We're attached. I've spent more Saturday nights over the past year dealing with Ally and Matt than I have spent with my best friend. Which is really sad and I should get out more. But that's besides the point.

I'm experiencing separation anxiety over people who don't even exist. If I wasn't such an obsessive reader, I'd be concerned for my sanity. As I tend to be obsessive when it comes to fiction, regardless of the medium, three months seems like an egregiously long time. I've tried to throw myself into the companion novel (yay!) and it's made some strides but I still hear a certain song or whatever and crawl right back to For The First Time.

Trying to stay away is proving to be difficult. Maybe because there's something wrong with my brain. But through all this, I've grown to appreciate how much writing this book has meant to me and how much writing the next one could mean, too. Writing has become such a part of my everyday life, of my routine, of me, that I can't imagine not doing it.

So, for now, I'm trying to stay away. I'll turn down Ally's voice and turn up Sarah's as I try for the currently elusive fresh perspective. Here's hoping it'll all be worth it.

Saturday, March 23, 2013

Fact or Fiction?

There's a certain comfort in writing through other people's points of view. We see the disclaimer at the beginning of movies and TV shows and books that "this work does not reflect the views or opinions" of whoever's producing the piece. I always wonder if that's true.

Someone had to write whatever media audiences consume. Someone feels the way the characters feel. But fiction provides a channel to express what you're feeling without being to blame.

Your characters can say what you can't.

My characters can be more ballsy than me or more soft-spoken or more forward or just plain cooler. But somewhere in them is a piece of what I'm feeling or a shadow of what I've felt or thought or hoped at some point in my life. Those "views and opinions" aren't pure fiction.

That being said, the first draft of my first novel is almost finished. And it's scary as shit. I've been obsessing over Ally and Matt for months now. I can't get their voices and their story out of my head. It's not groundbreaking - no one can expect that. But I hope it's genuine and authentic and real for someone out there.

For The First Time is monumental, though, for me personally. I've grown through my characters and learned from their experiences and lived through them. I have conversations with them in my head. I find myself at parties or watching movies and thinking "Ally would love this". It seems totally dorky but immersing myself into her head and into her life has left a lasting impact on me.

The connection I have with these fictional characters created in my own head is a little mind-boggling. They're the first things I think of when I wake up and the last things I think of when I fall asleep. People always say that's what happens when you're in love. So I guess I am completely and totally in love with my literary family.

I have two last scenes to finish before I take my enormous Scrivener document and download the PDF to my Kindle. It makes me antsy to think of reading something I wrote on my Kindle. My Kindle, that has been home to beautiful stories by Katja Millay, Colleen Hoover, Tammara Webber, Jamie McGuire, Steph Campbell, Liz Reinhardt, Jillian Dodd, Jessica Park, Tarryn Fisher, and so many more fantastic writers that I've grown to love.

These authors have inspired me to take the story in my head and write it down. Without the example of that kind of bravery, For The First Time would still just be an idea I had once.

This story is fiction but for me, these characters are real. And while I'm scared shitless to share them, it'll be the most satisfying thing I've ever had the opportunity to do. So if there's an idea in your head, whether it be for a book or a movie or a Facebook post, write it down. Share it. Chances are, someone will find a little piece of truth.